Sunday, 27 July 2008

I can't upload any pics online. mildly annoying.
this trying to lose weight thing right, goes beyond just numbers and measurements.
It's deeper.
It's my believe that things would be better, if only i were this weight and not that.
stupid i know. i cant stop still.
but when i do reach there, what if things aren't?
well at least i know i've tried, there wouldn't be any more what ifs.

The Winter Season Arrived on 07:06;

Friday, 25 July 2008

Can’t read what’s I’m writing now as I’m at the office, i delibrately set the font small : p
Don’t want to get caught blogging
There’s nothing I can do now anyway

So. My weight loss plans.
I’m not going to be that haphazard anymore. I’m going to chart what I’m doing and eating, and match that to my results (if any) to find out what I’m doing right or wrong.
I found out that I lost 3kgs the last time I weighed myself, which was last week.
Today’s the moment of truth again, haha

Every Friday is casual day here, so we get to wear jeans and t-shirt, I’m wearing my tightest pair of jeans every week, and see if it gets progressively loose.

I’m not obsessed or anything la, though I find all this quite fun, actually.
And I’ve recently started joining the fitness first exercise classes (thanks Sherlene!)

So.. dah 3kg. Quite the excited to see how much, if any, weight I’ve lost.

I still have a long way to go I know, (I wanna loose about 10- 12kgs), but every little step counts right?

Wish me luck!

Oh btw, the unagi at mid-valley’soh sushi is super super nice… not slimy at all. Must try must try. the best i've had.

And pavillion’s forever 21 is AMAZING. It’s like every little girl’s toyland. They even have separate “rooms” for accessories, lingerie, etc. just spent my lunchhour there. Shall lose weight and save money first before buying.
(I’m on this very noble plan to not spend so much money, I’m gonna spend bout half my lunch money (I’m assuming it’s bout 10 ringgit a day), and save the rest for shopping. Not much la, but still better than nothing right? And I’ll treasure thest uff I buy

Sucks to type and not be able to see what I’m typing

The Winter Season Arrived on 00:19;

Thursday, 17 July 2008

i'm so tired i cant write in sentences now. i wish i had more stuff to do at work. and i am so relieved at my results. i wanna lose (more)weight. i'm a bit pissed right now, because i see how people can be inherently self-centred asses. like how u ask them to make a phone call for u coz your phone's dying and you're stranded and they behave like its the biggest trouble in the world. i've been wrong lately, only coz being right always meant faking it. i've let it all lose, and i dont regret it, because it wouldnt be fair otherwise. and i'm afraid. i'm afraid of everything. i'm afraid of how i'll react to situations, even at work. i'm afraid of myself, gosh

The Winter Season Arrived on 07:50;

Saturday, 5 July 2008

Tomorrow, I will think. Tomorrow I will overthink. I will wonder where and why I went wrong, I will scrutinize everything to death.

Now I say to hell with it all,

Today I am fine.

The Winter Season Arrived on 12:34;