Friday, 16 May 2008

People say,
LOSE WEIGHT
then dapat bf

I used to say,
screw it
what happened to not judging books by their cover
what happened to picking substance over form

Now I say,
maybe it doesn't happen that way
maybe people don't come runnong along loving you for who you are
since i don't too
maybe i've believed in the shallowness of it all
but deep down it depresses me
coz there's still a part of me,
that believes that Cinderalla's ugly sister, deserves to love and be loved too

annoying la.

The Winter Season Arrived on 10:10;

Sunday, 11 May 2008

Photograph-Nickelback
I was driving along Federal, this song was playing on the radio. It stuck, I memorised part of the lyrics, and searched it online.

Every memory of looking out the back door
I had the photo album spread out on my bedroom floor
It's hard to say it, time to say it
Goodbye, goodbye

Little did I know then how inept I am at saying goodbye

Canonball - Damien Rice
I was in Malaysia, doing my EH essay in front of my desktop at some ridiculous hour, as I was still severely jet-lagged. Damien Rice's songs were before this just another one of those that I never really liked. I wasn't really paying attention, but somehow I "awoke" when this played :

there’s still a little bit of your taste in my mouth
there’s still a little bit of you laced with my doubt
there’s still a little bit of your ghost your witness
there’s still a little bit of your face i haven't kissed

A dam deep inside me broke, I was, for the first time in a long while, in touch with my emotions.

When you're gone - Avril Lavigne
Grossly overplayed song, but at that time it did fit how I was feeling

When you walk away I count the steps that you take

WTF so emo

Fighter - Christina Aguilera
I fell in love with this song looong after it came out.. like sometime last year?

For some reason whenever I listen to this song now, I am reminded of the time Tink, Kael-li and I were walking from the main building to the SAM block in Taylors, and we were all gushing about how much we liked that album.

If I were to head some pro-feminism movement, I would play this song like over and over again.
This song and survivor..

I bruise easily - Natasha Bedingfield
I saw the music video of this song while working out at the gym and really liked it.
So simple, so sweet, so real.

Untitled - Simple Plan
We were on the train back from Ashford, Hui Ying, Ee Vien and I were each listening to this song on our Ipods at the same time, while pretending to be deep, dark, over-emo goth kids. Heheheee..

This I promise you - N Sync
I was 14, and I would stay up till LATE at night surfing MTV, just so I could watch the music video of this song once more. I loved loved loved this song.

That time don't know got youtube yet ma.. or maybe it didn't even exist then.

The Call - Backstreet Boys
For some reason the music video scared me. I actually feared for the boys.. i was like.. RUN! RUN! Don't let her kill you!!

I don't understand myself sometimes.

Tong Hua - Guang Liang
Hehe.. It was at some prefect camp, and we were singing this song at the end. Later on, I sang this song so often, and so horribly, that my classmates were like.. SHUT UP!!!

Qian Li Zhi Wai - Jay Chou Feat. Fei Yu Ching
I chanced upon this song on MTV, and I really really liked Fei Yu Ching's voice. The dude can sing. Especially compared to Jay.

*need to get started on econs now*

Labels: I

The Winter Season Arrived on 08:18;

Sunday, 4 May 2008

I'm missing someone now. He's still nearby, he could be here in an instant, but it wouldn't matter. Because even if he's by my side, I would still be missing him. I guess I would rather be here alone, than sit there constantly being reminded of what we used to have, what we are now.

It's not that I have problems saying no. I have problems saying no, and then not wishing I had said otherwise

Did you not mean what you said? he asked.
Or was it all out of sympathy?

How do I tell him that I meant it all, and so much more,
But I am so so so tired.
Talk is cheap to us now.

Hence here I am, walking around with a hole gaping where he used to be, not because it has to be like this, but because I want it to be. Because it would hurt more otherwise, because I have little more in me to face it all.

I never thought I would miss someone by choice.

The Winter Season Arrived on 12:04;