Wednesday, 11 June 2008

It seems nowadays my life revolves around when I'm going back, how I feel before going back and after.. so predictable lol

Well. I don't know how to feel now about going back.. There's just so many things la. Firstly there's the internship that I paid 350 pounds for but is still "in the process".. i didn't know it would be so tedious.

Plus I just felt so out of place when i went for that internship preparation seminar in birmingham... And that was like 2 days and I went off after 1. I can't imagine what 8 weeks away would be like.
I wonder why that seminar was so shitty for me though.. I think my self-confidence has plummeted so much that the thought of meeting new people just terrifies me. What to do what to do I don't wanna waste that 350 pounds..

Then the fact that petrol price went up.. which means that i can't drive around so much. Maybe i'll just like follow my dad out every morning or something.

OH oh oh I found a nice little flat. It's not that near to school (about 25 minutes walk maybe?) and there's no direct bus or tube to school, but i'm quite excited about it actually. The condition, both inside the flat and in the common areas such as the lift, is great. Plus we don't have to pay over summer. Plus the rent includes all bills.. I would so hate to have to limit my bath time.

Gonna miss the Passfield people once we all move out though. It won't be so easy to hang out anymore. I guess it all depends on how much effort we put into keeping in touch with each other.

I just wish I could settle down, emotionally, somewhere comfortable for once, and be able to accept myself and the very obvious flaws, so that I can take on new challenges and grab hold of all the opportunities in front of me.

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