Tuesday, 22 April 2008

People close to me (veeeeeeery close) would know how severely constipated I am. I used to eat so much papaya (not coz I want bigger boobs la), my palms turned yellow due to the overload of Vitamin A.



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Drawing saya cantik kan?


My longest record without going is something like 10 days, sometime during A-levels.


So.. during desperate times, I would turn to laxatives, and today for some reason I wanna talk bout them : )


First I went for chemical laxatives, those in pill form that can be bought over the counter. They were effective, veeery, but it was really tiring. I could feel my bowels being forcibly cleaned, which was akin to scrubbing a silk cloth with a hard-bristled brush. Since using the pills would cause overdependence (lazy bowels), I switched to other alternatives.


Then, I read about TruDtox tea in the papers. Marketed as a natural herbal laxative, I decided to give it a try.







It tastes not bad, really. And it feels gentle.What's going on inside I won't know though.


The problem is.. It is too expensive to be taken frequently. An individual sachet used to sell
for like RM5.90, now I think they're selling them only in bulk.. close to RM30 for 5..

Assuming I take one every 2-3 days, that's like more than RM 30 in two weeks. Tsk tsk tsk..

Later on, I found this tea from China, it's imported through Cosway here.



Introducing Lite Tea, from Oriyen.

Sounds dodgy I know, but it's really quite okla. The ingredients consist of herbs like mulberry and pine leaf, and it smells really woody.
It's a bit harsher than TruDtox, like I wake up in the morning just to go to the toilet, and it makes me go like twice to three times a day.
But it's getting better now that my body's sorta used to it.
I can get it at a cheaper price than TruDtox.
Best part is, I think I lost weight since taking it : )

So yea. There you go. The lengths I go to to shit.

The Winter Season Arrived on 22:28;

Monday, 21 April 2008

Gosh there's so much that I wanna blog about!!

First
I surprisingly cant wait to go back to the UK.
I was just telling si Benny, when we're back it's as if we run away from our life over there. That everything hits a pause button.
It was liberating at first, now it's just not practical la.

This trip back has been really quite fun though! made lots of friends. Hazel, Eng Hong, Woon Soong, Wei Kuan, Ai Vern, Yvonne...Got to know entirely different lifestyles, drove A LOT.
Reconnected with old friends

Second
I need to be NORMAL

I know that many stereotypes abound. And that we should just be ourselves, not conform to anyone's rules, and people will love us for that and if they don't they're not worth it yadda yadda yadda

But the more I get to know people, people my age, people of the same educational background, indentifiable upbringing
and they tell me stories bout their lives
I go

What's wrong with me ha?

People my age date, they have serious relationships, mindless flings, ups and downs

I don't need a boyfriend la.
Just that having one, would once and for all, validate myself to myself (if that makes any sense) that there is indeed nothing lacking in me, that I'm just like any normal 20 year old.

sad hor?

Third
As I go through lecture notes, I think to myself
This is not so hard after all
Why didn't I bother trying to learn throughout the 20 weeks of term time that has passed?

Fourth
I'm not together with Benny. We're close , nothing more, nothing less
he is so. nice. to me
Though the dude seems determined that I lose weight
And proceeds to show EVERYONE my before UK and after photos
And they'll go like "what happened?"
then he's happy.

Frankly, he does make me insecure (see second). Girlfriends, flings, it's so easy for him!!!!! How am I different?

Aside from that awesome friend he is.

Fifth
Sometimes I don't understand why we don't hang out.
Sometimes I do.
To Kael-li and Yen Tink
I miss the bond we had
I hope it's still there
I miss you.

The Winter Season Arrived on 09:37;